Coffee & Chaos

Coffee & Chaos

Monday Again? I feel like we just had one of these……

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This Mornings Coffee
I am trying a brand new blend of coffee! It’s called Deadly Grounds and holy hell is it good! Today I had a big cup of the Sinful Delight (which is a chocolate and cinnamon roast!) an amazing start to my day!

Monday Mindfulness
Determined, Sleepy

This Weeks Intentions
Get through my dang check list of to-dos.

 

This Weeks Goal
– Finish an album a day as far as editing pictures goes.
–  Get the new website up and functioning.

I would love to hear about your intentions and goals this week- even just your Monday mindfulness! Pingback to my Coffee & Chaos page, or this post so I can see it!

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Coffee & Chaos

Coffee & Chaos

How is it already Monday? What happened to the weekend? I feel like I was robbed…

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This Mornings Coffee
Espesso Roast with 2 scoops of sugar and lots of ice cubes. In my favorite cup!

Monday Mindfulness
Groggy, Delayed

This Weeks Intentions
To bounce back from yet another heart episode. To stay positive and keep momentum going.

 

This Weeks Goal
– To accomplish the multiple large tasks at hand this week
– To get my gym routine locked in
– To get back to meal prep instead of scrambling to make my meals as I need them

I would love to hear about your intentions and goals this week- even just your Monday mindfulness! Pingback to my Coffee & Chaos page, or this post so I can see it!

Healing

A Year Ago

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A year ago today, my entire world as I knew it came crashing to the ground. Nearly 15 years of best friendship and a year of dating than engagement. My first love. My “Great White Buffalo”. A year of enduring shitty treatment from those in your life, constant emotional roller coasters from your family, and worse of all- abuse from you. Physical, Emotional, and Mental. The manipulation, the mind games, the unjustified guilt trips. The hands and force that came with the alcohol. I was a beaten dog- yet I loved you with every ounce of my being. The words cut through me life a hot knife. I was lost. I was shocked. I was overwhelmed and I was numb all at once. I didn’t know how I would live life without you. You broke me down to the point where I couldn’t. You had me thinking I was too broken for anyone but you to love. I was too much for anyone but you to handle. Everyone loved you, you were the one every girl wanted, the guy every person loved and adored. You couldn’t be the bad guy so Tes just must just be crazy or have done something wrong. I lost a second family, I lost the life I spent 15 years dreaming would be mine. You took everything from me- a family, a home, friends and “friends”…everything. I had given up every single thing in my life to be with you, and you left me with nothing.
 
A year later, I still have no answers. No reason why. People ask, and I still can’t tell them anything, because I still don’t know. I’m sure the stories being told are one sided, or aren’t being told at all, so all kind of small-town rumors have been made up and spread. I avoid the East Side like a plague and never, ever go anywhere where I change running into you or any of our, well my former “friends”. I saw your sister while she was working- that was inevitable- I couldn’t make it through a simple greeting without losing my composure. I am still heartbroken, confused, and most of all left wondering.20055-w-clement-stone-quote-truth-will-always-be-truth-regardless-of.jpg
 
A year later, I am doing just fine without you. My life is the best it has ever been. (other than moving back to NC all together…) I am living in a dream house in a perfect town. I wake up and fall asleep to the lake. I am recklessly pursuing the things that set my soul on fire. I am dancing again, I am taking pictures again, I am blogging again. I am putting my heart and soul into my work and the organizations I’m associated with. I am laughing and smiling and enjoying every day- the things I never thought I could do without you, I am not only doing, but doing 10 times better than I ever did with you.
 
A year later, it’s time my point of view finally gets said, so I can close this chapter and shred the pages.
 
I love you. No amount of time will change that. Through it all, I still love you…only now it’s with a piece of me that loves you for teaching me to Love Myself. To embrace my flaws. To understand that I don’t have to be “good enough” for anyone but Me. I love you for reminding me I am too much to handle- because I am forged from fire and made to glow brighter than everything else around me.
Coffee & Chaos

Coffee & Chaos

Hitting the ground running! Today is a determined Monday!

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This Mornings Coffee
Caffe Verona K-Cup with 2 scoops of sugar brewed over ice with 3 pumps of carmel and 3 pumps of vanilla.

Monday Mindfulness
Determined and Motivated

This Weeks Intentions
To keep my level of motivation going all week.

 

This Weeks Goal
– Get my Photo Blog up and Running
–  Get my draft folder shrunk wayyy down
– Get caught up on all of the stuff I’ve been meaning to get up on my blogs

I would love to hear about your intentions and goals this week- even just your Monday mindfulness! Pingback to my Coffee & Chaos page, or this post so I can see it!

Prompts

Local – The UnSalted Life

There is something so utterly soothing about sitting on the front porch in the morning, listening to the lake and enjoying the breeze. Sometimes- it’s surreal. This is where I call Lakefront Livinghome now. I am lakefront living and I love it!

Making this move was a hard decision. It’s quite a ways away from family (yet I’m still reachable- It’s only an hour away) which sort of defeated the purpose of me moving back to this horrible state. I wanted to be closer so I could have help with mini Demon while I finished school and worked. I have been doing it on my own for the last 6 years, so It was time to have help.

In my mind and soul I knew that I needed to be closer to the water. It’s where I belong. I also knew I missed the beach and the south, and want to end up back on the beach in NC again one day.  What better way to compromise that moving lakeside? It’s been an amazing as I has hoped living the freshwater life could be, and while I miss the salt life, this will do for now.

This post is in response to the The Daily Post’s One Word Prompt Challenge “Local”

Coffee & Chaos

Coffee & Chaos

Is today Monday? I thought it was Tuesday.  These last 2 weeks have been so insane that I don’t even know what day it is!

IMG_2696This Mornings Coffee
Caffe Verona K-Cup with 2 scoops of sugar brewed over ice

Monday Mindfulness
I feel like my mind is a TV on a fuzzy channel

This Weeks Intentions
To bring order to my brain again

This Weeks Goal
– Get life back in order and flowing like it used to
– Get all the drafts I have from the last 2 weeks published (and correctly back dated) so my poor blog doesn’t look unloved and naked!

I would love to hear about your intentions and goals this week- even just your Monday mindfulness! Pingback to my Coffee & Chaos page, or this post so I can see it!